Hope
I long since feared the grey.
The wind and rain of drizzly winters;
and through my mourning moods,
I've hustled down the slopes of tenuous frivolous hopes,
to smile upon the living dead with loathing and a sense of dread,
that one day they might see the lies that echo from my soul.
I stand up once again.
I have stood more times than many, having gathered up the strength,
to see the world through lifeless and unloving eyes,
but in the grey my spirit turns to mush
and dribbles down, like melted aspirations
for a life I'll never live to see transpire.
Yet still the grey clouds fall,
I shed my skin and all at once was born again,
but not into a better world no, not into a nicer place;
and shadowed by obscurity bereft of any purity
I saw the beast was but a frightened little child,
still drawing from his mothers pap.
I ride the rapids to the falls,
no glory from the beaten path,
I turn to find the path has overgrown;
and covered all the traces, all the people, all the places
and left me with no memories of my own.
And still the rumble of the falls, draws all hope away from me.
I hunger for a sunrise,
The dawning of a brand new day
whose light and warmth shall burn away
the blackened stains of life without a shelter;
and succour me with comforts only known to those
whose dreams are made from fragile faded lint.